Thursday, November 11, 2010

A Small Step or a Giant Leap?

This Saturday I will be making a Big Scary Leap.

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Nah, not that kind of big scary leap... had you going though didn't I?

Some might think it's just a small step, but right now, for me at least, it feels like a Big Scary Leap... back in to the paid workforce - dun dun DUUUUN!

I've done a little bit of freelance makeup work since Tricky was born – just for clients that had heard about me through word of mouth, which means they were all women from Map Guy's work (he's my makeup pimp), but not enough that you could really say I was working. I hadn't put myself out there as “open for business” after taking time off to have Tricky for a few reasons.

I didn't know quite how to go about re-launching myself (from a cannon?) and plus I wasn't sure if I was ready yet. I was quite happy to plod along taking jobs whenever they came up but my bank account was whispering sweet nothings to me... with an emphasis on the nothing rather than the sweet.

The arguments for and against were spinning around in my head:

- I'd miss out on Tricky-time
- I'd have to express multiple times a day at work and I already feel like a cow
- Map Guy and I will only get one day a week together

+ We'd have more money
+ I would have a lunch BREAK and toilet BREAKS
+ I'd get to talk to adults about things other than poo and wee

I didn't know if I should call my old work (I was an in-pharmacy makeup artist) and ask to come back. I knew they needed someone but would they want me? After all I am the chick who told them on my very first day that I was preggers.

In my defense, I didn't know I was pregnant when I went for the interview – I found out the day before I started so when I got there I was all “forgive me for breeding.” Not really the type of first day I was expecting (cos I was expecting *boom chick*).

Then on Monday... THEY called ME! Hooray! You love me, you really love me!

So tomorrow I'll have my first full day without my Tricky - and I'm sad, excited, nervous and anxious all at the same time. So wish me luck!

{to find out how my first day went, read about it here}

How did you feel going back to work? Was it a small step or a Big Scary Leap? And because I'm now using Disqus for comments so I will endeavour to reply individually.


It's Friday so that mean's it's Flog Yo Blog Friday again! Check out the great reads below. As always #1 is our fabulous host, Lori from Random Ramblings of a SAHM.


  1. Aaaaw good luck you brave,wonderful mummy! Its gonna be a day filled with 1000's of different thoughts..and yep..ALL of them are gonna be about Tricky?? And when you get home,the much anticipated reunion!! Followed by "Did Tricky poop? Did he drink his whole bottle? How many naps and for how long?" lol Hope you enjoy your 'YOU' time! :) Simone

  2. Thanks, Simone! I'm not sure who is more nervous, me or Map Guy - he's never had Tricky for that long by himself!

  3. I am going into work for half a day tomorrow too. Just to finish up a file that I was working on before i went on maternity leave. I am a little bit nervous too as I have never left my lil' girl for that long. My sister will be taking care of her. I am scared nervous and sad at the same time. Not sure why.

  4. A 1.00am post on a Friday night, you're either a party animal or the mother of a very small baby! Hehe. It'll be nice to know our little ones are in family hands, I think I'd be more nervous leaving with a baby sitter.

  5. Good luck! It is nice to have a little bit of grown up time :-)

  6. What's the bet that I just talk about him non-stop when I could be talking about interesting adult things like politics and the environment or really important things like celebrity gossip!

  7. I hope it goes well for you .It is a scary step.
    I will never ever sky dive ...just saying & GOODLUCK !

  8. My son is nearly 9, I went back to work part time when he was 2 and I still remember that first day back at work like it was yesterday. The most vivid memory was that at the end of the day I looked down at myself and thought wow I have been in these clothes all day and they are still clean! Enjoy yourself. Charmaine

  9. Oh wow. Good luck.i did go back to work for a bit before my second was born- the first few shifts were really hard. Try to enjoy it- time at work seems to pass much more quickly when you have a cherub waiting for you at home! ;)

  10. I've never skydived, I don't think I could actually jump. My sister did it for 21st and said it was amazing... I'll take her word for it.

  11. That's a perk I didn't think of! Clothes that don't smell of baby spew - what a luxury!

  12. Thanks, Lori. I'm going to try really hard not to be one of those chicks that bore every other staff member silly with stories of how cute my kid is... I give it 5 minutes tops before I whip out the photos.

  13. Ah one of the hardest decisions in the world - a really tough call that one. I think that getting the 'Adult' time again makes it worth it though - keeps you sane and will make you appreciate the time you do get with the family even more. good luck with it, I reckon you will be fine.

  14. NappyDaze/WinfreyWatchNovember 13, 2010 at 4:56 AM

    I remember when the time rolled around for my return to the (paid) working world - that calendar was still left unturned to the day I finished, complete with a big red texta annoucement "LAST DAY!" - time warp or what??!! But as hard as it is to be away from your littles, enjoy the freedom - and if nothing else, the peace to pee privately!

  15. I think I'm going to be bored in my breaks... might just have to call home to keep myself amused :P

  16. Thanks, Glen. Why do I feel a bit dirty when I talk about wanting 'adult' time? ;)

  17. I hope today is going well for you and you aren't missing your little one too much. I am your newest follower! Happy FYBF!

  18. Hi, thanks for stopping by my blog! Yes, that's a decision I'm facing right now - return to work or stay at home. I think I'll make a pros and cons list like you. Part of me wants to and part of me doesn't. Hmmm, what to do...

  19. I have another Pro to add to my list: Laugh myself stupid with my old work mates :)

  20. Thanks MultipleMum! Today went really well and I smothered Tricky with kisses and cuddles as soon as I finished... I was watching the minutes tick down for the last half hour.

  21. I think going back to work might answer your 'where's my glow?' question. It certainly helped me find mine!! x

  22. I am not looking forward to going back to work, that's why I am trying to find jobs I can do from home in my own time. It would be even better to have another baby, but my husband is not convinced... Once you take the leap it is probably not so scary, it is the lead to it. Hope it all went well for you. New follower.

  23. Thanks, Tat. It wasn't as scary as I thought it would be. Did make Map Guy drop off and pick me up though so I could have maximum Tricky time :) (Followed ya back :P)

  24. But then I'll have to rename the blog! Bugger!


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